Who is the Big Bad Wolf?

How do you see the world? Is it like the story of Little Red Riding Hood where you are innocently traveling along and you encounter this Big Bad Wolf of somekind that tricks you when you least expect it? Do you blame everyone for all that has happened to you? Have you ever had to ask yourself that question? It's hard being truthful with ourselves isn't it? Or how about this? Are you paranoid and so untrusting just so you can prevent the Big Bad Wolves in your life? You know, kind of like I can only rely on myself for anything and I won't ever give anyone half a chance at doing me wrong or pulling some form of trickery on me? Do you ever think like that? How do you view the world? I think that is a really important question and I love to wonder that about people and how they think. People actually fascinate me on a very intellectual and phycological level. They always have. I love people. So..again, I find myself thinking about people today.
God created us so unique, so different that no two people are the same. We are all similiar, all alike.... you know that DNA cannot be reproduced. Like a fingerprint.
Probably the greatest gift a person can receive outside of salvation is knowing how much you are treasured by God. To know that while everyone is treating you poorly (if they are)...God is there loving you. While you are alone, God is there waiting on you to open yourself up to him. I too, I wonder alot of things for example, I've had a lot of conflict in my life. Much of it I've brought on my own self. Really, I have. My family has basically disowned me and I set the ball in motion for that to happen but if any of you knew what it took to actually accept that and write it and announce it...whew, to admit I caused my family to get so angry at me they won't even speak to me?.....HA!! if you only knew how much that held me hostage. So I figured why not blog about it. Lets just break these chains!! The guilt over what transpired between me and family really controlled me so what changed for me was this: if I'm such a horrible person than why is God there telling me I'm not horrible at all. If I am not worth talking to, not worth working out a conflict with and not worth even speaking to...why is there a GOD that tells me otherwise? I rolled this question around over and over. I prayed, I asked forgiveness and you know what I asked forgiveness for? I asked God to forgive me for the negativity in my heart. I asked God to forgive me for hurting other people with my choice of words and how I expressed them. I said some negative things about my family that I felt were true. What is awesome is God has forgiven me because I asked him to. My sisters have not. And if they have...I do not know about it. I know I have finally come to peace with it through praying and seeking with God. God's forgiveness is a treasure to hold close.
I think it is interesting that for days now I keep rolling around in my head this Joshua's Generation concept. You know, the Generation for a Cure thing? Well, look how that can be applied? A cure is a solution. It's a healing. It's where something is fused together and made stronger. At least I'm going to think of it that way. So if I want a cure for my soul....I can seek God. And HE can cure me of so many things. Even acceptance into broken relationships. It is the devil that holds us hostage to negativity. Hostage to how we view ourselves. So with all the conflict in my life, all the really negative things I've experienced....I don't feel that the world has been all about Big Bad Wolves. In fact, I think the opposite. When I read things in the bible, and evaluate my situation, I couldn't figure out why some things were as they were. I struggled with answers. You know like why can't my sisters sit down and discuss this with me? If God is so forgiving, why can't they be? I don't know what happens in the hearts of others. I wish I did. So I guess it's just part of wondering how others view the world kind of thing. I have since come to realize that I might have done a really poor job at expressing myself but if I was honest which I usually am... I felt like I didn't want to live with double standards, I didn't want to live with hypocrisy. I didn't want to live with judgement and negativity so while I handled changing that poorly, it is how I feel and believe. I allowed anger and words to get the best of me and expressed it between my two sisters poorly but it's my position and I'm not going to be held hostage by guilt in being a person who desires certain things.
In retrospect, and in taking what I've learned and moving forward the one question I really struggled with was this and maybe out of this posting it will stand out..."why can God Almighty forgive me, but two sisters can't?" I didn't get closure on my situation because all parties had a meeting of the mind. And adding a little splash of "my honesty" once more...I think they think I'm the Big Bad Wolf and they are Little Red Riding Hood but for me....I think the devil is the real wolf. He's the one who is disquised more than we realize. So if I was to say how do I view the world? I think we have a powerful devil who uses people and circumstances all the time and he is very subtle and tricks people all the time. But I think people all deserve God's grace and salvation. As for my sisters forgiving me....Well, only they and God know that answer but between me and God...I did what I needed to do. I am sad, but peaceful. So I don't have an outcome that is great, but I have an outcome that has cured my pain within my heart and soul and God has delivered me from that burden. God does cure us. He may not cure our physical ailments, and we don't always get the outcome we want....but GOD always does know the right way for us.
Today I asked how do you view life? It takes a level of reflection to answer that for yourself but Mother Teresa wrote this: Prayer enlarges the heart until it is capable of containing God's gift of himself. Ask and seek, and your heart will grow big enough to receive Him and to keep as your own. Wherever God has put you, that is your vocation. It is not what we do but how much love we put into it.
I think that is good wisdom to follow. We could definitely find a cure for our spirit if we do that just a few times a day, don't ya think?